Title? u decide.

Lets pretend we’re together

Cause im liking the way you make feel

Wish it’ll be forever

You and me

We’re meant to be

You know you make me happy

You got eyes like the sun

So deep and bright and they’re mine

Boys want to be with you

But they gotta wait in line

Cause your mine, all mine

You laugh at me when im clumsy

But that’s my intention

I wanna make you happy

So cute when you smile

Brings back childhood memories

It melts me all this while.

When you’re with me

My heart wont stop beating

When im all alone

I cant stop thinking

Thinking of you…

Lets pretend we’re together

Just like this right now

But I can wait..

I can wait forever.

sorry

sorry girls n boys i havnt posted in a long time..ive been busy with assignmnts n shits. and now its study week,well gotta study study aite. ill talk to ya guys later ya. wish me luck for finals.

xox

PAC - Embun Musical Theater

FASTING MONTH ;D

Its finally here dudes,

the fasting month

more sacrifices to be made,

especially for those in campus like me

hehe ;D

May Allah blessed me during this month,

please make me stronger,

open my heart to the world,

forgive all my wrong doings and sins,

make me patient please,

heal my heart and soul from its emptiness,

open my mind, let there be peace in my heart

so that i could always study,

For you are Almighty and Merciful .

AMIN.

Down Down...

Im feeling a bit down right now

i dont know why

lonely

upset

haaaish why laaah

Girls

girls girls....cant live without em.

i dont know whats wrng with me, but i always get the bitchy ones or mayb the ones that only plays. or wtv.

i know i used to be the same, playing, gaming, just having fun..but that was in highschool.

C'mon we're grown ups now..cant you just show that you're putting an effort in a r'ship?

I mean i dont want any commitments or get into anything serious..but just show that u care.

I want to be in a r'ship that some1 cares for me and would always be there for me.

i sound like a pussy -.-' haha.but yeaah, i admit its true.

I dont want to sound 'poyo' or anything but i dnt have any troubles with getting a girl...but its the typse of girls that i have a problem with. Its always with the bitch, players, gold diggers, too social, long r'ships. I cant handle it no more. Im tired of all those shit. I want some1 that could change me, make me feel like i want to be a better man. Its the easiest ones to get, is the hardest to trust. I mean, if i could get you so easy, whats the diff with other guys?

I admit, im easy to fall in love with but i have trust issues. Its hard to get my trust in a r'ship. Especially in a long-distance r'ships. Im always cranky, jealousy is always in my mind. Who are you with, whose ur friends...clubbing? overniting?...cmon...ive put those shits away. Really girl, you said you want to change? You wear a 'tudung' but your attitude is just wrong...going out late nites, clubbing, thats why i never trusted you. Your excuses are always the same - busy busy busy, dont worry, I LOVE YOU. and to me all your saying is just BULLSHIT. So girls dont go playing around with me, cuz you know i can do much better at playing. Game me and ill do x2 worse but i wont, because I CANT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE. Im tired.

Girls if i look you in the eyes and tell that I LOVE YOU, i mean it. Ive been in many r'ships, countless, but, IVE NEVER CHEATED before and i never will. Just show that your worth it.

BAAAAAAAH

Ive so so so tired this past weekend. huuuiih -.-' So on last thursday i went bk to KL, i didnt even get a chance to go home 1st, my parents picked up to go to my aunt's place for my cousin's wedding. so gotta help help rite. but it was sooo TIRING. I didnt get enough sleep at all, act wen did i ever got enough sleep haha.

SO yyeaaah on friday night was the 'akad nikah', it was soo cool, after it all settle, Farhan was like 'YEAAAAAH !!!'. Could see that they are really happy together. Then..on saturday was the ceremony, the reception n all. IT WAS AWESOOOME, beautiful, it was at a place in damansara, call BORA ASMARA, n the theme was like BALI i think..so they were candles everywhere n buffet. So ROMANTIC. haha and ofcourse being the family of JEMALI, which is on my mum's side...we all took like loads n loads of pics. Ill upload it soon enough, i didnt get the chance to put it in my lappy ..*sigh*

Well look at the time now,Its 4:00Am alreadyyyy..n im not asleep yet. wohoo. class will b starting soon aswell -.-'

Talk to you later guys and girls. Gdnite and gdmorning.

xox

SB

heeey boys n girls ;)

how was your week ye?

mine was alrite..except i got a bit ill lately...bz bz bz as always

so yeah this week like any other weeks..class, assignmnts work..the only fun part was practicing theater with Performing Arts Club, it was cool. Got to release my emotion a lil bit. haha,listen to me..so dramatic -.-'

so anyway..I got the New KOLEJ guys, wohooo! yeaah. big high-five,up top. AWESOME.

Before this i was only like staying illegal temporarily in Adim's room. in Taming Sari (TS). Ive already gotten use to stayin in TS, im gonna miss it, n all my friend is all around here :(

gosh...its gonna be hard guys.

They all think im happy bout it, ya know...new kolej, new room, bigger n better place..

NO...its a bit far from all the facilities, im lazy -.-' n the students there are all seniors maaan...

im only in Part 2, am gona b the most jnr staying there ..waahahaha ^-^'

and its a bit creepy there too, ghost n whatnot wtv haha.

I hope im gonna fit there nicely and not get into any mess.

and no NEGATIVITY plsss.

*fingerscrossed* -.-'

oh yeah this new kolej is call SB, i dnt know what it stands for,i forgot.

but on the other hand..is theres gonna be girls aswell :)

wohoooo! uptop,highfive,AWESOME.

OKAY GUYS...talk to yous later.

xox

I Can't Pretend

So this is one of my old poem, im posting it again cus im feeling that FEELING again when i was writing this.

I cant pretend this isnt happening
It happen when my heart wasnt paying attention or seeing or listening
But i never stop believing
I fell in love without warning
Now im somewhere between nowhere and a broken heart
I know this feeling i should never had
You did nothing wrong
You did nothing to lead me on

I cant pretend the time we spend together doesnt send my heart soaring,
soaring above the heavens skies
I dont wanna believe this is just a couple of lies
I dont want it to end with just a simple goodbyes

I cant pretend our hearts connecting
and our souls embracing, are not real
Why dont you tell me how you feel
Do you feel the way i feel?
It can just be another secret
Just another seal

As we smile and laugh together
You know i want it to last forever
Connected our souls and body
Yet, i know more than friends we cannot be
And friends we did became, instantly
For all i know, another holds your heart
Another owns your love
Its not my decision, its a decision from above

Still..

I cant pretend i havent fallen
and my heart wasnt stolen
Chances are, through this truth
Through my confessions to you
I will lose, with you
I cant live without you
What we both admit we found and share
Its nothing i can bare
Its something I cant hide

I cant pretend it doesnt exist
Something im frightened to say
Yet, not at all ashamed to admit
With you, my skies are not grey
With you, my heart skips a beat

I cant pretend i dont want more
Just understand, please believe
This i know i can share only with..
with your heart, your ears, and your heart alone
You are the girl that has my trone
You are my true achilles heel

I'd never try to break ur heart,life
or find another lover,
Forever u know ill never ever
Unconditional and true, I am here for you
I just cant pass you by, look into those deep 'tell-all' eyes
and pretend i dont know you
pretend I dont Love you
but I DO.

By; Faiz Ruslan
02:36 am
21st April 2010

"For it was not into my ear you whispered,
but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed,
but my soul." - Judy Garland

Unappreciated

My definition of Unappreciated

- having value that is not acknowledge

I act wrote this a long time ago after spm i think. Ive posted it in my notes on fb, dont know if you guys have read it or not. Hope ya'll like it yeaah,its about a girl, duuuh -.-'

I was there for you when walls seems to shrink on you,
I was there for you when the lights seems to dimmed on you,
I was there for you when the skies seems to fall on you,
I was there for you when the roads seems to be longer,
However,where were you when you're needed?
But i didn't bother.

Where were you when the gates seems to closed on me,
Where were you when i realised nothing in this life is free,
Where were you when i just needed you to see,
However, I was there for you when everything seems to be over,
But i made you stronger.

I know that I'm not that much,
I know that I'm not him,
I know that I have a lot of sin,
I know that you, I cannot catch,
Non the less, My feelings for you is true,
All I need was a bit of appreciaiton,
Though I have made your skies from grey to blue.

You are the one I want to be with,
You are the one I want to share with,
You are my north and south,my east and west,
You are my sundays night rest,
Non the less, you never seemed to cared,
All I wanted is to be aknowledged,
Though you keep me hanging by the edge.

Everything I do and say,
It is all true,
Not just another piece if shit on a tray,
Because I do it and I did it for you,
I'm attached,
I'm not just another scratch,
But you got me feeling Unappreciated.

Original Posting by
Faiz Ruslan

04:39 AM

23rd April 2010

"I have found the paradox,

if you love until it hurts,

there could be no more hurt,

only more love" - Mother Teresa

MUSIC TAUGHT ME TO LIVE

Just wanna post something that i found on youtube.

I think it sounds cool and probably have some connection with me.

The Script taught me how to move on.

Greenday taught me that government's gonna fail someday.

Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love

Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through

Travis taught me to be generous

Taylor Swift taught me not every girl is going to treat me right

30 Seconds to Mars taught me to speak whats on my mind

Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me

Music taught me to live

TRUTH

I DONT REALLY KNOW HOW TO BLOG

BUT ILL TRY ;D

Whats been going on...

So here's whats been going since last time i posted.

1. I finished my PraDiploma at Uitm Penang, applied for Masscom but i didnt get it because they didnt really want any Pra students..i know, bummer riiite.

2. I reapplied for diploma using my spm which sucked btw, and i got this course, Information Management. Its alrite i guess...

3. Last semester at the new campus Segamat, Johor. haha..its bit in the midde of no-where but its cool, no worries, no traffic and its easier to focus on my studies i guess. Lots of chicks btw ;) wohoooo!

4. I did my finals n i only got only 3.15 GPA for last sem :( and i lost my red card which was meant to be for stayin inside campus for this semester. haaaa

5. Due to the loss of this red card thing, im currently staying illegally haha at my friend's room. they alrite ;D

6. This semester, hopefully DEAN'S LIST.

Latest Gayer Look -.-'

Bored

Most of you might not even know i had a blog rite, well...i do. haha. the reason i havnt update it is because...well i dnt really have much to tell anyway. I got bored and probably no story to tell, not an interesting person okay ^-^' . oh yeaaaah, i also forgot my password before,so i lost

hope. ITS BEEN ONE YEAR!. haha.

So noooow, im thinking of updating it again. Its Because im FREAKING BORED right now -.-'. Bloody hell...so starting from now

, im gonna update this blog every once in a while. *fingerscrossed* You might not like my blog, my style or my personality but i dont really give a damn, so dont bother to read it in the 1st place.