I Can't Pretend

So this is one of my old poem, im posting it again cus im feeling that FEELING again when i was writing this.

I cant pretend this isnt happening
It happen when my heart wasnt paying attention or seeing or listening
But i never stop believing
I fell in love without warning
Now im somewhere between nowhere and a broken heart
I know this feeling i should never had
You did nothing wrong
You did nothing to lead me on

I cant pretend the time we spend together doesnt send my heart soaring,
soaring above the heavens skies
I dont wanna believe this is just a couple of lies
I dont want it to end with just a simple goodbyes

I cant pretend our hearts connecting
and our souls embracing, are not real
Why dont you tell me how you feel
Do you feel the way i feel?
It can just be another secret
Just another seal

As we smile and laugh together
You know i want it to last forever
Connected our souls and body
Yet, i know more than friends we cannot be
And friends we did became, instantly
For all i know, another holds your heart
Another owns your love
Its not my decision, its a decision from above

Still..

I cant pretend i havent fallen
and my heart wasnt stolen
Chances are, through this truth
Through my confessions to you
I will lose, with you
I cant live without you
What we both admit we found and share
Its nothing i can bare
Its something I cant hide

I cant pretend it doesnt exist
Something im frightened to say
Yet, not at all ashamed to admit
With you, my skies are not grey
With you, my heart skips a beat

I cant pretend i dont want more
Just understand, please believe
This i know i can share only with..
with your heart, your ears, and your heart alone
You are the girl that has my trone
You are my true achilles heel

I'd never try to break ur heart,life
or find another lover,
Forever u know ill never ever
Unconditional and true, I am here for you
I just cant pass you by, look into those deep 'tell-all' eyes
and pretend i dont know you
pretend I dont Love you
but I DO.

By; Faiz Ruslan
02:36 am
21st April 2010

"For it was not into my ear you whispered,
but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed,
but my soul." - Judy Garland